*Rah Rah Rah* choke…
Posted on | March 31, 2010 | 1 Comment
She found it much easier to be a cheerleader for everyone else than it was to deal with her own issues. (Get back to work, you know who you are!!!) The last couple of days dragged by and she felt even more sloth-like. She seemed to have every excuse in the book and there wasn’t any joy coming from doing anything. Time for another self help book or ten. (Another new one awaited in the bag from the library) Maybe roasting marshmallows over the burning of the self help books would be more suitable. (Not the one from the library of course)
She wondered how long she could go on feeling sorry for herself, throwing a fit, kicking and screaming, being mad, being angry at the world, and just plain being a child. At some point this had to stop. When would she stop being afraid? When would she stop doubting everything she did? When would she have the confidence to say OK, things didn’t work out the way they were supposed to, let’s try something else instead?
This sucked. She hated it. She hated being tortured by it every night. She hated thinking she was going crazy. She hated hiding from the world…
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May 28th, 2010 @ 2:11 pm
you caught me.
im trying to catch up on your blog so im current, but im one of those who NEEDS to do it in order.. um yah. so here i am in March finally.
don’t you wish you cut shut the stupid in fighting in your brain off?