Company Needs Misery

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Uh oh…not again…

Posted on | February 24, 2010 | 5 Comments

She stared out the window at the gray sky and thought it was fitting.  All she needed now was the perfect background music to give that dramatic touch to her misery.  She selected something from her mp3 player (Torchwood [Original Soundtrack Recording]) and let the music wash over her.  Her lungs tightened a bit as each note played, her eyes welled as the sadness of the music itself affected her…she could feel the sorrow, the passion and the tremendous power as she separated each individual instrument out in her head, then let them fade back together to become one. She wondered if the composer had any idea what raw emotion he would bring forth in those who listened to his music.  But even as she took a small journey “somewhere else” riding along with the melody, her own sorrow built in her chest.  Her breathing grew more difficult when she realized it wasn’t just the music that was clamping down on her chest.  It was that she had a reality to face.  She was addicted again.

Being the completely stubborn person that she is, she refused to believe that every addiction required a complete abstinence from whatever one was addicted to. Some, like drugs and alcohol, needed to be avoided completely.  But people had food addictions and one could not be expected to avoid food the rest of their lives.  Moderation, however, was not something she was good at.  Now what?????

Category: Music: Sometimes Pleasure, Sometimes Pain, Ramblings

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5 Responses to “Uh oh…not again…”

  1. v.takahashi
    April 13th, 2010 @ 4:17 am

    moderation…when does it become natural to self moderate? Hopefully I can learn myself someday before someone has to moderate for me.
    It feels as if it may have something to do with not feeling we have enough… or maybe it is fear of being without. or maybe even a tad bit of greed may be involved… self indulgence perhaps… Interesting to think about…..hmmmm….

  2. Zombie-Girl
    April 13th, 2010 @ 10:29 am

    In reference to moderation and “things” I know for me my surrounding myself with things is a reflection of what’s going on in my mind. I don’t have a neat and tidy place in there. I know at least one section (I’m going to have to section them off like museum wings) is absolutely beautiful art (many thanks) and another is dark and scary. Etc…

    I also know that things can be over in a moment for anyone at any time. I know I can’t take it with me, although I can damn well enjoy it while I’m here instead of denying myself.

    I could go on and on about this subject but I won’t bore anyone.

  3. v.takahashi
    May 28th, 2010 @ 2:01 pm

    so im listening to samples and its very epic music….lots of drama in there….
    like painting with sounds……………..
    i like #6 into the hib.
    http://www.amazon.com/gp/recsradio/radio/B001CYZ9AE/ref=pd_krex_listen_dp_img?ie=UTF8&refTagSuffix=dp_img

  4. v.takahashi
    May 28th, 2010 @ 2:02 pm

    typo, “into the hub.”

  5. Zombie-Girl
    May 28th, 2010 @ 3:21 pm

    I really love this soundtrack…it’s great music to work by…

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